Tell me these choices,
All alone I swim as I say my goodbyes,
All alone in an OCEAN FULL OF LIES,
Rejected by the world I once called home,
But it pulled me out and threw me out like a comb,
Now I walk this desert of broken thorns and needles,
To sleep with the cows and the beetles,
As I stare up into the moon at night, I wonder,
I wonder why I was pushed under,
I wonder why I was never loved and never held,
Never held or loved but abandoned and expelled,
I no longer know where this long road will take me,
But maybe in the horizon I will see,
That what lies ahead will be what I left behind,
Then the stars will be aligned,
These empty faces,
Fill me with empty spaces,
Then I pray to whatever lies above by whom I have been banished,
I'll ask why was I made unfinished,
Because no matter where I go, no matter where I hide, I'll always be anguished,
Left to roam this world unfinished.
A Heart and Dark DaysThey say the world is coming to an end,
But they don't realize how far people will bend,
For an end they say that darker forces will send,
But all we can do is wait for someone to have a hand they can lend,
People hope, people pray,
From December to May,
From forever to never,
It's time to pull the lever,
I don't wanna demand,
But I wanna take a stand,
We barely make it through this world,
Because our hopes and dreams are thrown into a hurricane and swirled and twirled,
But what will happen when hope never comes,
And we lose everything in sums,
All I can say is that I will make it through,
Even when the sky turns from blue,
When people begin burning and dying,
I can finally stop lying,
Because when the morning of the end comes,
There won't be anyone to save us,
There won't be a light to keep us,
But I know we can make it through these dark days,
Because the heart always stays.
The TriggerI am not a sinner or a saint,
I wet these walls with my paint,
I think your too late,
Your almost dead in your current state,
Time to accept your fate,
Because with death, you have a date,
Rain on me with flowers and petals,
Bury me in the mound full of dirt and metals,
In my closet you will find,
The skeletons to which I bind,
All my darkest secrets die with me,
Then you will see,
I am not the man you thought me to be,
Now I am set free,
Now as you stare death in the face,
Your eyes go dark as if sprayed by mace,
Eventually your evil deeds have caught up with you,
Now your gonna die too,
Did you enjoy touching her?
Did you enjoy the hurt?
Your world gets smaller as mine gets bigger,
Now kiss the barrel as I pull the trigger.
EndsWith the power of my hand,
I write this poem to be heard in all the land,
Because it seems my thoughts are banned,
And buried in the sand,
I've never been one to complain,
But your words put me in pain,
Why did you talk to me after all this time of trying to get over you?
Did you know your very presence makes me blue?
Because I know I hurt you bad,
And I know it made you mad,
I'm just addicted to the ways I crash and burn,
But now I have learned to learn,
I'm a different person now and always will be,
Can't you see,
Your better off without me,
That's just the way it has to be,
So take this as a goodbye and hope we can be friends,
This is me tying my loose ends.
Take ItI'm going to take it.....
Well one day I woke up,
I guess today I decided I would suck up,
Because I can't get my way any way else in this word,
But I'm so lonely, so lonely, haven't you heard?
I feel this cage around me and it grows tighter everyday,
Is there no more I can say?
I'm going to take it.....
A punch to the gut,
A smack but that wasn't enough,
I smoke my cigarettes and I drink down my jack,
Then I cry myself to sleep when I hit the sack,
But then I realize when I have nightmares,
That they are wet dreams compared to the awaiting scares.
I'm going to take it......
Because I don't know any other way but I guess I'm going to take it...
I saw her one day at the market, her beautiful eyes looking at me from across the room,
Never did I know this beauty would be my doom,
A date led to sex, and sex led to a baby, and years down the road it led to a fight and the fight turned into quite a sight,
I sat down on my couch, screaming at myself for letting this happen,
I took my pills, m
Valium and a KickbackA slit,
Over a smit,
I never saw her face again,
Then again, was she really my friend?
Tore me down to make it clear,
That your love is what I really fear,
Punched my heart and threw it to the ground,
The pain you gave to me wrapped in a bow was the worst I ever found,
So bury me in this mound,
Six feet beneath the ground,
So tell me what I have to do,
So tell me how I can make it through,
So tell me how to win,
Because I wonder where I have been,
This love is bittersweet,
Some may say its "l33t",
But as the happiness fades,
Your hands show their true blades,
You would always compensate,
To stop yourself from becoming what you truly hate,
It seems you and death set my date,
Or maybe it was just fate?
Evil or not,
I won't die without tying this knot,
So if I am to die tonight,
I won't give my last breath without you in my sight,
Even when you poison my veins, I call it love,
I was never saved by someone above,
Well this time you gotta live without me,
That's just the way its gonna be,
The Worst in YouTried so hard to make this right,
But I'm lost at the bottom,
Figuring out to see whats real,
But this time around me, spins me faster,
I can see the bottom of the bottle,
I can feel the pain strung from the knife with the reasons why,
We lay here DYING in this world so cold,
Smoking up the ways we run and fall,
Killing ourselves but that's your call,
I can see the worst in you,
And your gone...
Feeling down to make this feel, but I'm lost in the battle,
Lifting up my hands today, to the feeling that maybe,
Someone will reach to me, and pick me up from this horror,
But this world so cold seems, to BREAK me in time,
Drinking away the times we learned,
Hanging ourselves but its your turn,
I can see the worst in you,
And your gone...